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Sam the Psycho July 8, 2012

Posted by Crazy Mermaid in Delusions, Hallucinations, Hearing Voices, Insanity.
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Walking into the mental illness support group, I was surprised to see two teenage boys sitting side by side in our small circle of chairs. Very few young people come to support groups.

It was clear from Sam’s glassy and brilliant eyes that he was the one with the mental illness, and that his friend, Carl, had simply been the means of Sam’s transportation to the meeting. Later on, we learned that Sam’s mom had actually talked Carl into bringing Sam here. I surmise that Sam wouldn’t get in the car with his mom. Or vice-versa.

When Sam’s turn came to share, he said he was getting more violent against his mom, and that he was having trouble with his relationship with her. His principal complaint was that she didn’t agree with his religious views.

He claimed that he and God were buddies.  He also claimed to be possessed by the devil and demons. He said he was routinely roused from sleep by the demons’ violence against him.  They punched him and pushed him and yanked his hair while he tried to sleep. Oh yeah: and he said he wasn’t mentally ill. He was just possessed.

Initially, he and his friend sat quietly listening to the three of us share our stories. But as time progressed, Sam was increasingly claimed by his invisible friends.  Talking and laughing with them, he faded in and out of our reality.

Sam said he had been taking two anti-psychotics for 2 months. Based on his severe delusions and his statement that he wasn’t mentally ill, I seriously doubt that he was taking his meds at all. His friend said that Sam hadn’t been back to his psychiatrist since he had been given the anti-psychotics. I suspect that was by choice.

Leaving the meeting, I realized the danger Sam’s mother was in. I hoped she had a lock on her door. After all, her teenage son, known to be very angry with her, roamed around the house believing that he was alternately God’s best friend or possessed by the devil and demons. It isn’t a stretch to imagine him slipping into her room at night and slitting her throat or stabbing her as she lay sleeping, convinced that the devil and demons- and maybe God- had directed him to do it. She would be just another dead mother whose soon should have been committed to a mental hospital before he murdered her.



1. Gledwood - July 11, 2012

When I was last in the hospital, which was a few years ago, olanzapine (Zyprexa) was the trendiest antipsychotic, mainly because it was available in orodispersible form. I remember the night they ran out and had to dish out ordinary pills… the bin was literally full of them!

I wish there were some good mental groups near me (London) but I don’t know of any. The last one I went to was for dual diagnosis drugs and mental illness, but the only mental illness that turned up in any numbers was bipolar.

Most schizophrenics I have known just do not see themselves as sick. In fact that is the most striking difference between schizophrenia and bipolar ~ the attitude to the illness, and the willingness to talk about it. Bipolar people will talk on and on… even when they’re not manic 😉

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